Monday 25 February 2013

Don't forget to breath

"I am a strong person, but from time to time I need someone to 
take my hand and tell me everything will be alright"
Sometimes we all let things get on top of us and the only thing we want to do is stop everything and cry. This is definitely how I've been feeling lately. I achieved so much and saw so much more of the world than ever before in 2012 that it changed me, for the better.

Lately, my grades at university were not what I wanted. They weren't bad, but I'm a perfectionist and expect nothing less of myself than the best. My essay then went missing so I didn't get a grade at all and I was ready to sack it all in there and then. My Grandad was having tests for prostate cancer. These came back positive. And well, the weather. Don't get me started on that.

The house I was living in was vile. I always knew I was house proud but seriously, there comes a point when you can't keep cleaning up after somebody, no matter how much of a friend they are. I'm not going into detail because it would be ridiculously embarrassing on her part. You wouldn't believe what some girls are like! I guess 'fight or flight' would explain the situation I found myself in. Did I stay for the last month of my contract and sit it out, or leave? I chose the latter, mostly because I think the situation was making me ill. So with the help of my amazing boyfriend, his family and mine, I left yesterday.

I got the lost essay mark back and got a First. My Grandad's cancer treatment is under control - with the help of my Mum keeping an eye on him. I realised last week on a sunny coach ride back from a gallery, with my music blasting in my ears, that everything is going to be alright. I can't believe I thought about giving up my degree. Photography is my passion and has been since I can remember.

So although we all face those hard times just remember, the sun will come out and life will be okay. I feel a lot more calm and relaxed than I did two weeks ago. So keep smiling, and don't forget to breath. That's the crucial part.

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11 comments:

  1. Sorry to hear you've had such a difficult time lately, glad things are on the up for you now :) stay positive!
    Kaz x

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  2. Sorry to hear about your Grandad and that things have been so rubbish. You're absolutely right though, things will be ok. Keep your chin up buttercup. xx

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  3. Such lovely photos Lindsey and thanks for the inspiring message. I am sorry to hear about your hardships, but you're right. We truly can't appreciate the good times unless we know what the bad feel like, and everything always turns out for the best :) xo

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  5. Glad life looking alittle more positive for you now babe :)
    Keep smiling!!
    x

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  6. This is such a beautiful post, the pictures are stunning :)

    I'm in my first year at uni, and a perfectionist too, when I got my first essay back I cried because I got a mark way worse than I expected/wanted, but I pikced myself up and kept going.

    Now I feel like i'm doing so much better an di'm so much happier than before. Keeping positive and focusing on the future is definitely the best thing to do when times get tough!

    Albertine (from DippyWrites)

    x x

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  7. Really Inspiring post I am happy to hear that your Grandad will be okay such sad news :( but its a good choice you made on sticking in with your degree and moving out the house as anything that makes you feel negative or physically ill is not good for you so happy to hear things are positive now and hopefully things will get even better :) xx

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  8. Oh girl, so glad you're starting to see the sunshine again - it definitely sounds like a rough time, and I'm so sorry about your grandpa going through that :(
    But stay positive, and keep that pretty head up!

    Trendy Teal

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  9. we all go trough difficult times and no matter how much we try to be positive, it's never easy. I wish you all the best, you're such a sweet positive person!

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  10. This is such a beautiful post!
    Its nice to know that everyone goes through rough patches and even nicer to know that you have come out the other side feeling more positive.
    I hope your grandpa is ok!

    Anna xx

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  11. Beautiful images! I've also been looking for new fashion blogs to follow -- looks like you're the one! I can't wait to see more of your posts; I'll be adding you to my fashion blog followers list! <3

    The Queen of Hearts

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