"I am a strong person, but from time to time I need someone to
take my hand and tell me everything will be alright"
Sometimes we all let things get on top of us and the only thing we want to do is stop everything and cry. This is definitely how I've been feeling lately. I achieved so much and saw so much more of the world than ever before in 2012 that it changed me, for the better.
Lately, my grades at university were not what I wanted. They weren't bad, but I'm a perfectionist and expect nothing less of myself than the best. My essay then went missing so I didn't get a grade at all and I was ready to sack it all in there and then. My Grandad was having tests for prostate cancer. These came back positive. And well, the weather. Don't get me started on that.
The house I was living in was vile. I always knew I was house proud but seriously, there comes a point when you can't keep cleaning up after somebody, no matter how much of a friend they are. I'm not going into detail because it would be ridiculously embarrassing on her part. You wouldn't believe what some girls are like! I guess 'fight or flight' would explain the situation I found myself in. Did I stay for the last month of my contract and sit it out, or leave? I chose the latter, mostly because I think the situation was making me ill. So with the help of my amazing boyfriend, his family and mine, I left yesterday.
I got the lost essay mark back and got a First. My Grandad's cancer treatment is under control - with the help of my Mum keeping an eye on him. I realised last week on a sunny coach ride back from a gallery, with my music blasting in my ears, that everything is going to be alright. I can't believe I thought about giving up my degree. Photography is my passion and has been since I can remember.
So although we all face those hard times just remember, the sun will come out and life will be okay. I feel a lot more calm and relaxed than I did two weeks ago. So keep smiling, and don't forget to breath. That's the crucial part.